post-surgery is kicking my ass

i had acl repair surgery yesterday and today i've been floating on that percocet dream life. i think understand why people like to take it as a recreational drug. though i could do without the nausea. no one talks about the nausea.

anyhow. i have the attention span of a gnat so i could only manage 7 songs that seem to be constantly in my head (7 is the same number of horcruxes voldemort had, number of weasley children and how long in minutes i can concentrate right now). forgive me, or don't, i don't care. my next dose is in 45 minutes so this mushy brain feeling is prohibiting me from feeling too strongly 'bout anything. except for how much pain i'm in.

and that rivers cuomo is a snack. and elijah wood. i have a skinny, small white boy thing, i admit it.

i'd also like to point out that kanye is dropping jesus is king in two days. i will be appropriately prepared for the let down but, see above for how much i don't care about things.

xoxo
--ffh

p.s. what's going on with asher roth? maturity is a good look for him; he finally graduated! gotta make money to pay that student loan for 13 years of college. bahaahahhaaha.

lordy mcgordy i'm high.

p.p.s.: i am strangely articulate despite having taken narcotics pretty much straight for the last 2 days. i'm not sure if this is a sign that i did too many drugs growing up or that i'm made of stronger stuff.

7. old town road road pony remix - pomplamoose
6. me & you - little stranger
5. mommydog - asher roth
4. planet x - calimossa
3. gucci rock n rolla - snakehips, rivers cuomo & kyle
2. swim high - babyteeth ft rivka rose
1. high - young thug ft elton john (only because it's like a theme song right now)

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these are a few of my least favorite things...

I go on about things I like on this blog. I like Watsky and Austin Post Malone (despite how much I think he looks like he smells like Doritos); I like Radiohead and John Mayer, old-school Kanye and Glass Animals and most of the things recorded at Staxx and Motown. But, like every good academic essay, there should be elements that argue the opposition; you should be aware enough of the arguments against you own argument.

So today's playlist is made up of 20 examples of music I fucking hate. Not just music I choose not to listen to should it pop up on a playlist or turn to a different station on the radio when it comes on. This is music that makes my blood boil and my rage churn in my gut like lactose. This is music I abos-fucking-lutely hate and make me hate the fact I have ears.

The making of this playlist was painful, I'll acknowledge it. I had to scour the deep recesses of my brain to remember that song I heard once that made me want to crash my car into a guardrail. I had to actually listen to a few of them to verify if they were in fact, the song that I despised. Many of these entries have doubles as I kind of despise the artist and not only the song that made the list, so take it all with a grain of salt. 

Enjoy my pain. I think they call this schadenfreude. The things I do for you.

xoxo
--ffh

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It's been one week since you laughed at me...

As a Canadian, I feel like I should support Canadian artists occasionally, like the Barenaked Ladies for example. 

Or I could not because that's just as easy. But I do have one week until I'll be cooked off Percocet after my ACL reconstruction surgery and the lyrics worked as a perfect segue to discuss my problems. 

Anyhow, below is what's been keeping me sane as I slowly descend into pre-surgical panic. Do they give Valium out a week beforehand? Top 5 because I got bored halfway through. Curse you ADHD.

xoxo

--ffh

5. westworld - evan giia

4. voices - kembe x

3. retro (rough) - childish gambino 

2. nobody but you - matthew chaim

1. soaked - BENEE 

'... i know what i did to you was wrong hence why i've kept it for this long. secrets have been brewing up a storm. did not expect it to transform. soaked up in my brain, for another day. these things i'm tryna say drenched and swept away that's the truth. soaked up in my brain, don't know what to say. something about you boy you soak up half my brain yes you do... ' 

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I forget often that this blog started out listing nothing but indie hits I mined from MTV's undiscovered playlists (at least, I think that's what they used to be called) and from Blalock's Indie Rock Playlist, or BIRP for short. I haven't downloaded an BIRP monthly in years. I moved on. But as with anything, I still find myself drawn into the genre occasionally. What can I say-- I'm a sucker for Bon Iver.

So in an concerted effort to have more exposure to more than just Spotify's curated hip hop playlists (which I also dislike but for various reasons [Post Malone, DaBaby, Lil Nas, etc...] but still listen to for background noise), I've been listening to the local alternative radio station. Thankfully, it's been pretty innocuous for the most part; I've only turned the radio off in anger oncethrice for them getting into a groove of playing absolute shit. But I've arrived at a few conclusions that I think are important to note.

1. How have I never mentioned how much I absolutely despise July Talk? If there was one band that, if given absolute power to eliminate all living and dead memory of, it would be July Talk for me. I cannot stand his gravelly voice, nor her falsetto and their god awful duets. It makes me feel a sense of rage I didn't know I was capable of. 
2. Radiohead gets an unfair lack of airtime outside of 'Creep'. They have better songs, trust me. 
3. HOW DOES MR BRIGHTSIDE STILL HAVE SO MUCH AIRTIME? WHY ARE WE LETTING BRANDON FLOWERS WIN??????? Cease this foolishness, posthaste. [*Anecdote: I once saw The Killers in concert, and it was one of my least memorable events to date, and I've seen Lilith Fair*]
4. All of Metric's songs are basically indistinguishable from each other. Fight me on this. 
5. Tegan and Sarah are the devices that the Devil brought. Even though their from my hometown, I cannot in good conscience 'stan' them, 'Everything is Awesome' notwithstanding. 
6. I feel like there should be a public outcry for transparency in where a lot of the royalty revenue goes. Artists deserve to be paid fairly for their intellectual property, and there are cost inherent in this, but I also wonder how much of that money is say, going towards questionable organizations, like Scientology. Or P.E.T.A. Fuck those guys.

There are other thoughts, but most of them are centered around how I can't tell the difference between Young the Giant and Tame Impala or whatever. I'm sure if I was actually listening I might be able to but I've already made up my mind.

Anyhow, the top 10 that are mercifully free of July Talk. I think I'd rather be dead than include them. I'm also still very much in a Radiohead/John Mayer mood. No apologies. 

xoxo

--ffh

10. Codex - Radiohead

9. Make Me Feel - Janelle Monae

8. 6's to 9's - Big Wild ft. Rationale

7. Truth Hurts - Lizzo

6. House of Cards - Radiohead

5. Rock Bottom - grandson

4. St. Patrick's Day - John Mayer 

3. Skip - SuperParka

2. Sugar - BROCKHAMPTON

1. Sugar Honey Iced Tea - Princess Nokia

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currents

hey all,

This week is all about John Mayer. Why, I'm not entirely sure, but I'm really digging going through his old catalog, avoiding the trite pop hits like "Your Body is a Wonderland" and instead going for the bluesier hits like "Gravity" or "I'm Gonna Find Another You."
Apparently my inner early aughts frat boy is making an appearance? At least it's not the Dave Matthews Band. Small miracles, I guess.

This week is also all about the singer-songwriter, folksy, country elements. I also don't know why, because normally I despise country music in all its insidious forms. Yet I find myself drawn to Casey Musgraves right now, and Tyler Childers, particularly his "Feathered Indians." Real, modern country?! I hear no mention of America, freedom, trucks, Wranglers, ticks, knockin' boots, or any other inane elements I loathe about pop-country that seems to permeate everything around where I live. Perhaps I just hate the country I've been spoon fed my entire existence. Perhaps I really dig hearing about how Tyler Childers should have known his love interests' dad was a religious man so he wouldn't have come in stoned. Or that Casey Musgrave's grandma cried when she pierced her nose. These are things I can relate to. AM I GETTING EVEN OLDER?!

I would be in a Kanye mood, but alas, Jesus is King didn't drop on Sunday like Kim K had mentioned. I'm almost relieved-- I need to be focusing on writing perfect cover letters and tailoring my resume so that I can finally use my degree(s) for good instead of just collecting dust in their frames. I think when my savings run out, I'll use them for fire fuel because then they'll actually do something for me. I digress.

I might also mention here that I really enjoy anything Frank Ocean does. I wish he would do more, but I probably wouldn't like him if he did. His cover of "Moon River" is spectacular, highlighting his vocal range and control and the fact that if anyone should be covering R&B standards like "Moon River," it should be him and him alone (though I wouldn't say no to a gospel-inspired version by Kanye West. Just sayin').

 Anyhow, I hope my melancholy white-boy infatuation isn't detracting. It's just a phase, mom.

xoxo
--ffh

10. feathered indians - tyler childers
9. slow burn - Casey musgraves
8. only one - kanye west
7. dangerous - nick murphy/chet faker
6. moon river - frank ocean
5. hey ma - bon iver
4. slow dancing in a burning room - john mayer
3. i'm gonna find another you - john mayer
2. in repair - john mayer
1. gravity - john mayer

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