lyrical fitness

Written by ffh in gotye, lyrircs

as much as i hate to do this, this song is pretty much my life right now. i absolutely hate it. it's being played to death.

but it's so true.

so without further ado, 'somebody that i used to know'.

saying that made me feel ill

xoxox ffh

now and then i think of when we were together. like when you said you felt so happy you could die. told myself that you were right for me, but felt so lonely in your company. but that was love and it's an ache i still remember.
you can get addicted to a certain kind of saddness; like resignation to the end, always the end. so when we found that we could not make sense, well you said that we would still be friends. but i'll admit that i was glad that it was over.
but you didn't have to cut me off, make out like it never happened and that we were nothing. and i don't even need your love but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough. no you didn't have to stoop so low; have your friends collect your records and then change your number. i guess that i don't need that though-- now you're just somebody that i used to know.
now you're just somebody that i used to know.
now and then i think of all the times you screwed me over but had me believing it was always something that i'd done. and i don't wanna live that way, reading into every word you say. you said that you could let it go and i wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know.
but you didn't have to cut me off, make out like it never happened and that we were nothing. and i don't even need you're love but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough. no you didn't have to stoop so low; have your friends collect your records and then change your number. i guess that i don't need that though-- now you're just somebody that i used to know.
now you're just somebody that i used to know.

currents

Written by ffh in current

i'm done with my whiny white girl stuff. i promise. for two weeks at least. then... well........ we will see. i'm intrigued to hear what everyone has to say. 'oh no, it's completely not what you think at all. i just took this girl, who is now single and hits on me all the time to france to drop off a laptop to my grandfather'. this is what i will get. perhaps i was right to have written them both off?

ugh. it seeps into my every day. i need a hobby. i'm going to take up quantum physics. i need to get my mind focused on something else.

anyways, here's a new, fresh top ten listens for today. i've had to listen to the radio a lot because... my ipod is like one long memory lane filled with sad reminders.

SHUT UP. OH MY GOD I NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP.

registering for school. right fucking now. something. anything to occupy my mind.

just a heads up, i'm totally ashamed of numbers 10, 7, and 3. but i can't help it....

xoxoxoxo ffh

10. what makes you beautiful - one direction
9. fall to pieces - patsy cline
8. lie4 - danny brown
7. stronger (what doesn't kill you) - kelly clarkson
6. somebody that i used to know - gotye
5. bulletproof (i hurt you) - the contrakids
4. learnalillivinganlovin - gotye
3. boyfriend - justin beiber
2. little talks - oh monsters and men
1. whirring - the joy formidable

'this much delight fills columns to new heights. all these things about me you never can tell. colours run prime, paint a picture so bright. all these things about me you never can tell. you make me sleep so badly invisible friend. turn the dial on my words i can feel they fall short. turn the dial, chime alarm, chime alarm. watch these hands move apart; turn the dial on my words. i can see you staying there. fierce steps shadow, live's will gone shallow. all these things about me you never can tell...'

the best revenge is living well.

Written by ffh in 5 stages of grief, playlist, rage, rant, various artists

alright. so i think we're moving swiftly through the stages of grief. sadness, check. anger, double check. bargaining, in the process, though i'm not really sure why i'm bothing.
life is unfair. and bitches (I.E me) get hurt. boys are assholes that take people you thought were your friends to france. mother. fuck-ing. france.

i hope they get french herpes from one another. GOOD KARMA, NOW. LET'S DO THIS.

annnyway. enough of my troubles. so last time was a sad song playlist for those cupcake eating, pity party having, cry-your-eyes-out times.

tonight is for the angry white girl times. those times where you want to cut a throat, smack a bitch, scream, rage, break shit. "he broke your heart so i'll break his jaw" kind of songs.

because i would like nothing better than to cut a bitch and break a (his) jaw right now.

anyhow, the list is by far not complete. i'm sure i could find any sort of metalcore or screamo or whatnot and find equally, if not angrier songs than these. but....... i hate that shit. it's not music. it's a bunch of sounds. and screaming. oh so much screaming.

i digress.

after the jump, the angriest songs i know. now go break somethin'.

xoxoxox ffh

words like knives

Written by ffh in 5 stages of grief, playlist, sadness, various artists

my weekend has sucked in such a multitude of ways. i feel like i'm in that part of inception when the dream is coming down around them; everything is just crumbling into the sea and you're stuck trying to squeeze gold out of a lemon.

this is how i feel.

so, because misery loves company, here is a selection of the saddest songs i could find. listen to this for strength, teary-eyed girls of the world, because it's really that bad. but it will get better. sometime. but not any time in the near future.

after the jump, get those tissues ready. the list is long, and involving. and downright fucking depressing. i've had a lot of time to think of this, clearly.

xoxoxox ffh

currents

Written by ffh in current

i really got into 808s & heartbreak this time around. don't ask me why-- well, ask away, and i won't have an answer for you other than 'it will get me laid'. long story short, i know what works and what doesn't. danny brown also gets me laid, but not as quickly as 808. this is completely irrelevant to what i'm doing. forget everything.

anyways, counting down time.

xoxoxo ffh

10. lie4 - danny brown
9. disparate youth - santigold
8. learnalivinganlovin - gotye
7. see you in my nightmares - kanye west ft lil wayne
6. boys i like - desert stars
5. grown up - danny brown
4. brick - ben folds five
3. paddling out - miike snow
2. freak - urban cone
1. amazing - kanye west ft young jeezy

'... i'm a monster; i'm a maven. i know this world is changing. never gave in, never gave up-- i'm the only thing i'm afraid of. no matter what you'll never take that from me. my reign is as far as your eyes can see. it's amazing, so amazing, so amazing. it's amazing. i'm amazing, yeah i'm all that. if i ain't on my grind then what you call that? victorious, yeah we warriors; we make history, strive for victory. standing at my podium i'm trying to watch my sodium. die high blood pressure either let the feds catch ya. i'm amazing, born on a full moon. i was bred to get it in, no spoon. that's why i'm so goon summertime no joke...'