currents

 sometimes i wonder if i can ever quite recapture the 'moment' that was 2009-2011. i felt things were working then and i was shining, you know? 

now i'm just some middle aged person typing away on her secondhand couch in her rented apartment's living room listening to songs from 2009-2019. is this what getting older is truly like? 

because if so, i'm over it. 

anyways. things accelerated as per usual in my thoroughly middle aged life. i moved. i work full time in a career i grow to loathe more each day (education sucks, yo). my interests are getting to bed early and getting the next book in the bridgerton series from the library because i am too cheap to buy it for myself. 

i think i'm just extra depressy-espressy because this week's throwback thursday playlist is from the era i consider my own golden age. i've lived long enough to see my shiniest moment become a nostalgic relic. 

ugh. 

that being said... wow. some of this stuff is not good. fleet foxes can still take a hike with their breathy, whiny vagin sounds. 

maturity, amirite?

laters.

xoxo
-- ffh

10. hang me up to dry - cold war kids 
9. i am steve - hey steve
8. PSILOCYBIN - dillanponders
7. 3am (toro y moi remix) - HAIM
6. taste of you - rezz, dove cameron
5. nuh uh - jades goudreault 
4. marinae - memba titus
3. hush - the marias
2. fuck em up - eazy mac
1. U&ME - alt-j

'... summer holiday having fun. happiness is between two buns. feeling funky on a rolling boil. smiles bend over can't control how i feel. it's just you and  me now. round of kimonos for my girls in the sun. sending videos to friends in London. Strut like Stellan Skarsgard to and from the bar, playin' my candied tangerine telecaster it's just you and me now...'